By LESLIE CASIMIR
Herald Staff Writer
PORT-AU-PRINCE -- While countless Haitians continue to smuggle themselves
into South Florida, and thousands of others fight for the right to stay,
some are
quietly returning to Haiti, building homes and nursing their severed roots.
It is the Haitian immigrant's twist to the American dream.
Lochard and Elizabeth Noel, who have lived in the United States for most
of their
lives, recently sold their three-bedroom North Miami home to live in one
under
construction in the mountainous Port-au-Prince suburb called Petionville.
Although bare for now, without windows or phones, the Haitian house represents
everything the Noels have ever wanted. They are home.
``Living in the States was very much like having all the food you wanted
-- but still
you could not eat,'' said Elizabeth Noel, 41, who taught Creole-speaking
students
at Edison Middle School and is now a teacher in Haiti. ``Wherever I went,
the ties
with Haiti were always there. They were never cut. This is where I belong.''
Since the downfall of the Francois and Jean-Claude Duvalier regimes, Haitian
Americans like the Noels have been steadily trading in U.S. comforts of
911
emergency services and reliable electricity for childhood memories of sweet
mangoes and street vendors who sing about pastries filled with meat.
Older Haitian Americans, who have worked hard to build up savings and Social
Security, yearn to do away with the deep sense of guilt for leaving their
countrymen behind, suffering under coups and economic hardships.
With every dream come sobering realities. Many who have returned -- estimated
at 10,000 -- have found a country where poverty and misery have intensified.
Those who escape the violence find themselves struggling to make a living
in a frail
economy with few job opportunities and an unstable currency.
The changes have forced many homesick Haitians to run back to the States.
The
childhood image of Haiti, the one carved in memories and told to the first
generation, is no longer the same.
A changed country
Most of the country's landscape has been stripped of its trees to meet
a desperate
need for charcoal, used as fuel. Once-clear rivers and streams are now
muddy
trickles used as toilets, garbage dumps and washing machines.
``It's hard to re-create the life you left,'' said Claude Charles, a Miami-based
anthropologist who has studied Haitian society. ``Haiti is not the same.''
Despite the distorted landscape, they come and go like the waves' ebb and
flow:
after Jean-Claude Duvalier, after Jean-Bertrand Aristide rose to the presidency,
and after Aristide returned to power under a U.S.-led intervention in 1994.
Some are civic-minded Americans, professionals, retirees and homeowners
who
are haunted by prideful stories of the rich history of the first independent
black
republic.
``There is a tremendous amount of pain, but I'm not responsible for it
-- I'm not
the one who caused the problems,'' said North Miami business consultant
Yves
Fontaine, who bought land last year in a mountain hideaway known as Thomassin
for $25,000. Construction of his home starts next month.
``I've done the professional thing, managed large county departments,''
Fontaine
said. ``I've paid my dues here professionally and politically. With what
I've gained
here, I can be of tremendous help to the country.''
Resentful greeting
Despite their relentless aid to the country -- as much as $1 billion annually
that is
wired to relatives in Haiti -- not everyone welcomes them back.
``It's a problem of space -- there is not enough room for every player,
and you are
considered a challenge and thus a threat,'' Charles said. ``The ones who
were
stuck in Haiti consider it unfair they have not had those choices.''
Moving back has not helped Haiti improve, says Gary Sanon-Jules, general
manager of South Beach's Tap Tap restaurant. His sister, Jessie Francois,
went
back to Haiti several years ago.
``Sure, you can build a beautiful house in Haiti, but I don't see what
good that's
doing for the country,'' said Sanon-Jules, 31. ``You still have unpaved
roads and
poverty. People need to return with more than just the thought of reliving
their
romanticized childhoods.''
Haitians who live outside the country are often termed Jaspora. It can
have a
derogatory meaning, referring to poor and uneducated people who flee to
the
States to find small fortunes and return with gold chains and gaudy values.
The stereotype is often not true. Most people come with the mind-set to
help
change Haiti -- the poorest country in the Western Hemisphere, one that
has been
without a functioning government for almost 18 months and one that is increasingly
a stop on the drug-smuggling circuit.
Unpleasant encounters
The tragic examples are many, and the horror stories are passed among the
estimated one million Haitians who live throughout the United States, especially
in
South Florida and New York.
Take Yves Phanor, a former Miami police officer who was fatally shot in
the chest
by robbers in front of his wife, Chantal, in 1996, as the family was moving
into its
home in La Plaine, a suburb where many of the people who have returned
are
building houses.
Phanor, 38, had left his job in Miami to become an instructor for Haiti's
new police
force.
``This is something he always wanted to do. He always talked about it,
and I
would say, `Are you crazy?' '' said Chantal Phanor, who moved to Long Island,
N.Y., after the murder.
His killers remain free.
``He loved that country, but I didn't share the same love he had,'' Chantal
Phanor
said.
Still, she and her three children, Ashley, Mark and Ryan, had joined him
in his
search for a simpler life. And Chantal Phanor almost believed they had
found it,
describing a feeling repeated by many immigrants when they return to Haiti
for the
first time: You are a man, a woman, a child. No one looks at you as a black
person or an immigrant, she said.
Longing for homeland
It is a message that artists conveyed in songs over and over again. Like
the one by
the late Ti Manno, who yearned to once again live in Haiti:
Every time I remember, water pours out of my eyes. I must return to my
country, it
is time for me to go. I've spent enough time outside. Bring me back, bring
me
back.
For some, the complicated reality of Haitian living is too much, and they
return to
the States.
Roger Biamby, the new administrator for Miami's Little Haiti Neighborhood
Enhancement Team, is rebuilding his life after returning from a two-year
stint in
Haiti a year ago.
Biamby left his job as executive director of the social agency Pierre Toussaint
Haitian Catholic Center in 1995 to start an economic development agency
in Haiti.
But after he moved his belongings, depleted his savings (close to $20,000)
and
sold his Haitian painting collection to set up the organization, government
officials
refused to grant him an operational license. They claimed his plans were
insufficient.
``I did everything they told me, but after a while, I said forget it,''
said Biamby, 51.
``If you're not part of the clan, they are not going to let you operate.''
A clear-cut choice
Others, like Lochard Noel, 43, a former teacher at Miami Park Elementary,
can't
imagine living anywhere else.
Two months ago, he and his wife, Elizabeth, landed jobs as English and
social
studies teachers with the Union School, a private, English-speaking institution
set
up in 1915, when U.S. troops began an occupation of Haiti.
One-third of the 400 students enrolled there -- including the Noels' three
children,
Sebastien, 11, Laurent, 8, and Gilbert, 6 -- are American-born of Haitian
parents,
school officials said.
The transition can be tough, said Linda Boucard, guidance counselor at
Union
School, who is a Haitian American who lived in New York for most of her
life.
``They become very defensive and have a hard time making friends,'' Boucard
said.
For eight years, the Noels have been building a two-story home off Route
de
Frere. The corner structure faces the mountain of Boutilliers, which resembles
a
patchwork of green squares, trees, amid billowy white smoke.
The land was a gift to the couple from Elizabeth Noel's parents. The couple
have
spent nearly $115,000 on the four-bedroom house, which they call Villa
Lilly.
They figure they'll need $50,000 more to complete it.
There have been many snags, and the price of cement bags has ballooned
since
they started building.
Making do for now
Until the home is complete, the family will live on the second floor in
two rooms,
equipped with four fold-up beds, a table and a refrigerator. Their furniture,
shipped from Miami, remains stored at the home of Elizabeth Noel's parents
in
Jacmel, two hours from Port-au-Prince.
There is a new addition to the Noels' family, one of the treats that most
Haitian
Americans who reminisce about the Haitian lifestyle revel in: a maid who
cooks,
cleans and does the wash.
Elizabeth Noel proudly shows off her peach-hued manicure:
``I even have nails,'' she said. ``I have time to spend with my children.
As far as
I'm concerned, I'd rather live in Haiti with all the problems because I
feel alive
here.''
Herald staff writer Leslie Casimir can be reached by e-mail at
lcasimir@herald.com
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