Extracts from Ramón Labañino’s first letter to his wife
January 21, 2001
"EVERYTHING started on September 12, 1998, at about 5:30 a.m.
at home. That’s where they arrested us and took us to the FBI
headquarters in Miami for an interview designed to ‘convince’ us to
collaborate and betray, in return for certain promises. Obviously I had
nothing to say and after several failed attempts, having made no
progress, they took us by car to the FDC [Federal Detention Center],
in the heart of downtown Miami, where we have been since that time.
"We were taken immediately to the 13th floor, where we stayed for
18 days. I had a solitary cell with an iron bunk bed, a mattress,
concrete table, a porcelain toilet, a metal chair and just one blanket
to sleep under. During the first three days, from Saturday,
September 12, 1998, to Monday, September 14, when we went to
brush our teeth for the first time, we had no freshen-up, no way of
washing, not even a comb¼ nothing. That’s when they took us
down for the first time to the federal show.
"This first court appearance was to declare that we had no money,
so the court would assign us public defense lawyers. That time all 10
of us were present.”
"During the hardest moments, in the most extreme solitude when
we even missed hearing the voice of another human being (and we
were frightened of losing our ability to communicate, we longed to
hear a word, in any language, spoken by another human being), I
always had you with me, without fail, always and eternally by my
side, my mother was there too. You were all there, my children, my
dearest friends, and in highest place the mother to whom we all owe
ourselves: our country.
"At that time, during all this, when I had just a small stump of pencil
and some sheets of paper, I wrote a few ‘attempts’ at ‘poetry,’ to
put some kind of name to what I’m sending you. There’s a bit of
everything, some are about love, for you and others close to me,
others are about life in general, some are even about philosophy.
There are others that I don’t dare send via this route because of
‘censorship,’ on which I don’t speak very pleasantly¼ about lies,
trickery in an ‘illegal’ trial. Just to give you a brief idea about them,
one is entitled, ‘They Will Not Succeed.’
"I’m sending you the poems I wrote in the famous ‘hole’ where we
spent 17 months of our lives (in the first six months we were alone,
that’s what inspired me to write this )¼
Absence
Woman, when I am absent
don’t think I am far away,
or even that I will be long,
don’t shed tears of pain,
or feel anguish for my absence,
don’t retrace your memories,
or scour my thoughts
or search my photos or my poems,
for a hidden message of love;
or some silhouette that is no longer there
in the shadow of your conscience.
Don’t complain about my empty space,
nor the mark left by my head on your pillow,
nor the moisture of my lips on yours,
nor in the 1,000 nights and one dawn.
Don’t let your soul suffer insomnia,
don’t languish in the taste of desperation,
don’t go without sleep, or torture yourself with unfinished ideas
Because I have not gone far away,
I haven’t moved, not even a bit,
from the center of your soul.
That favorite place
you always keep for me